Just when I think I am on top of everything, reality hits.
I hate it when I think I did well on a test and then my grade has something completely different to say. And to top it off, my phone decided to call it quits today. In the last week I have lost all of my motivation. I am so tired of everything. I just want to curl up in a blanket and never get out of bed again. I don't want to go to school. I don't want to go to work. I don't want to go anywhere. I'm feeling like there is no point in anything right now because it's not getting me anywhere in life. I am in a state of just being instead of living.
Nothing is what I expect it to be at the moment. My historian position is not going to work out like I thought it would, my fun plans aren't seeming to work out, and my job is getting so exhausting. Even as I sit down to write this I thought some of my stress would go away, but I just feel zoned out. I guess that means this is it for tonight. I will go to bed only to wake up to another monotonous day.
